Saturday, September 17, 2005

Where has SHE gone?

I am utterly and disgustingly disappointed with myself. When did I start caring about having a boy by my side? When did I throw in the towel and say to myself, "You NEED a man by your side just so you can feel like you are worth something,"? I mean, are we women so desperate for attention that we are willing to sacrifice our dignity just for some asshole with an ego-trip can treat us like crap? I am starting to believe that women do give and care a lot more than men do. We actually put thought into our relationships. I know men do, too, but over 90% of their thinking is done by their penises. Yeah, I said it, so shoot me! I want to know what happened to that fearless girl in high school who promised herself that she would never let a guy control her life or take over it? What happened to that independent woman who did not need a man to justify her self-worth? I did not need anybody when I was in high school. Yes, it might be a little bit naive of myself not to notice the differences between high school and college, but it seems to me that most of the boys in college are still stuck in a high school mentality. I am not asking for the pep rallies, Friday night football games, nor for the A&F crew to come back. I just want that strength that I felt during that time to be within me once again. Where is she? Come back to me....


I want you back
I want you back
I understand when they say
High School never ends....
-Smile Lines, Incubus

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