Shoe Schlampe

So, there are definately some days when I am completely in love with the idea that I am actually living in good ol' Germany; but other days, like today, I ask myself, "What the heck am I doing half way across the world???" Not to disrespect the German people or country, but some of them really have a big stick shoved up their ass (and not in a good way!!!). I apologize for the harsh criticism, but I am just venting. (This is the main reason why I have this blogger....if you don't like it then go on to the next web site.)
Back to the recap....
I have been a little bit homesick for the past couple of days, mostly because I miss the day to day interaction with my friends. I miss staying up late at nights talking about the dumbest stuff and then changing to a more deeper subject. I miss going to get some coffee or Panera's with some of my very good (few) friends. I miss having someone that I can just talk to or someone that I can watch 'Heroes' with. Basically, I miss all the people that have had such an importance in my life. It has been a quite difficult transition, alot more difficult than what I expected. You might ask yourself, "But Gaby, isn't your boyfriend there?" Of course he is, but no matter how much closer I am to him now, the remaining fact is that I am still three hours away. I get to see him whenever I can on the weekends (that's when I forget all this). But in the meantime from Monday through Friday I have no one to fall back to.

*sigh*
I guess one is never content.

I woke this morning to go to German course. I was wearing these really cute shoes that I had recently purchased, but I was trying to break them in....BAD IDEA! On my way to the tube station I tripped and rolled my ankle because the sidewalk was wet and their where wet leaves all over the ground. Wet leaves+Unsafe Surfaces+ New uncomfortable shoes= Gaby falling
Of course, like always I rolled my right ankle. (I think that makes it now 32 times!!!) I sucked up the pain and caught my train, stood for two stops, and switched trains where I have to ride the tube for about 20 minutes in order to get to my school. Well, I couldn't handle the pain anymore, so I took off my right shoe and placed my foot on the seat infront of me....once again, BAD IDEA! Once arrived at my stop I put my shoe once again, and then this old hag (pardon the expression) started yelling at me. She screamed that I was a disrespectful 'Schlampe' (Whore/Bitch) for putting my feet on the seat and that I should know better. OH, but get this.... then she said I do not know any better because I am a "verdammte Einwanderer" (a.k.a. a damn immigrant) Oh no, she didn't!!!! I did not know how to react. My mouth remained motionless as I tried to process the information that I just heard. But without any reaction I got off the train and went to my school. It was only until I was walking in the train station what had just happened. I felt a tear rolling down my face. And suddenly I had an epiphany; I realized no matter how hard I try or what I do I will never be fully accepted here. This saddens me.
However, I know that I shouldn't let one person distort my perception of this country. I know better than that. I have made many great friends here and have created some wonderful memories. It is just hard doing this on my own...

...but I will learn...
I hope...