Budapest's Statue of Liberty. It's pretty alright, but damn, I had to hike to the freaking mountain in heels to see it just because we didn't have enough time to go to the hotel and change. It hurt like a MoFo, but now I have some killer calves. =)

Inside the Hungarian Parliament

Hungarian Parliament at Night.

I am speechless....

Cute Pic!!! Notice the Commi Hats. hahaha

Hot Drummer who all girls were drooling about when we are the Jazz Club.

Part II

Krakow, Poland

February 25-28, 2006

I was very much surprised by Krakow. When I heard Poland, my very first thoughts were of a city with Soviet remains, underdeveloped, and very cold. Even though it was cold in Krakow, I was proven wrong. Yes, there are still remaining issues within Krakow/Poland to resolve, however, this country is well on its way to obtaining its goals.

Krakow, Poland

Krakow's Town Square in the Old Town part of the city.

More Town Square...

The Dragon! Legend has it that Sir Krak ( I am not kidding!), slayed the dragon that threatened the small village. However, he did this by killing a couple of cows and opening their stomachs and placed sulfur in them. He put the cows in front of the dragon's cave. When the dragon awoke from his slumber, he saw the cows in front of its cave and ate them. Afterwards, it drank from the lake. The water's reaction to the sulfur caused the dragon to blow up like a balloon and, thus, it exploded. Krak became the king, hence, Krakow.

Town Square

THE HEAD!!!!

Church where John Paul II gave services before he became the Pope.

The City Theater in Krakow where we saw "La Boheme"

Club Viagra.....yup, and that's us inside the club's vagina (literally!). And of course, such occassion diserves the ShOcKeR!!!

Club Hopping with the Zebras

Part III

Prague, Czech Republic
February 28-March 2, 2006

Prague is probably the only city that could probably pass as a western European city. There is a sense in the air of self-assurance and confidence amongst the Praguers (if there could be such a term). I fail to say “amongst the Czechs” because this would encircle the entire country, hence, there is nothing else to do than to create a single word to describe this group of people. Walking through Prague’s city center, I noticed the lack of poverty and trash on the streets. There was not any or the city has done a very good job in hiding it. There is an ongoing growing young community with high hopes and new feelings of optimism. The youth and the city are evolving at the same time and only time will tell in which direction Prague (and hopefully the Czech Republic) will be heading.

Cheers!!!! Prost!!!! Salud!!! Oh, how I love my dunkel beer.

At the Hungarian Palace

downtown

Prague

Downtown Prague

Hot business mamacitas at the Charle's Brdige

The Charle's Bridge

Part IV

Tallinn, Estonia
March 2-5, 2006

I knew Tallinn was very different from the other cities we have visited as soon as I walked into the airport. From right there, one could see the differences in building structures including the material used and the magnitude (or the non-existent magnitude in this case) in which this building was created. The airport was very small just like the country, but I also knew at that moment that I have misjudged the Estonians. As I was walking out from the gate into the main part of the airport, I noticed a full grown man wearing a mouse or bear costume sitting quietly on a bench by a corner. A smile grew slowly upon his face when he saw his friends walk out to greet him. Of course, his friends were surprised and laughing hysterically. And just like his friends, I, too, was surprised at Tallinn’s over all attitude. Unfortunately, there is still a small reminiscence Soviet air, but slowly and surely the Estonian youth is producing a new type of aura in Estonia. One night I went to a club and I met some locals. They were so surprised when they found out I was American. “We are so happy! We rarely see Americans here,” they told me. Is this a step closer towards globalization for Estonia?

The market square

The Long Leg Street... hence the boot

IES invites you.... Final dinner at Tallinn, Estonia

The best drink special ever at Club Havana= 2 for 1 drinks... oh my it was sooo much fun...i danced with some "Russkis" ( a.k.a. Russians) who were so excited to find out that i was a Mexican-American...who would of thought? i made friends with the Soviets...hehehe

The boys being pretty with their cocktails...oh how manly of them!!!

awwww....

Russian Orthodox church... this is a bitter sweet land mark.... in this church the Soviets burned all the books and writing the belonged to the people of Tallinn.....also, when we went in there, there was a funeral going on...yikes!!! that was akward....

To go downtown you must pass part of the castle...

Beautiful...

Finland coast in the yonder

Tallinn, Estonia

We met these British guys at an Indian Restaurant...we ended up singing "God Save the Queen" and "The Star Spangled Banner" with them...

And here we go...

Back from East and Central Europe...
will post up pics in a couple of days....
don't worry, i haven't caught the bird flu...

lol

miss everyone....

Around...

I am still in Eastern Europe...
I will be in Prague tomorrow...

I miss everyone...

2 Notes...

The days in Freiburg are passing me by too quickly. I have been already here for over a month. The snow has melted, but the sun really hasn't fully come out of it cocoon yet. The air is crisp and at times the mountains of the Black Feorrest sneak out of the shadows of the fog to say, "Hello." I find myself each day staring outside the window during my classes. All I want to do is to get to know the city a little bit better as each day goes by. The Freiburg streets are filled with laughter and the spirit of youth. I envy all those strangers strolling along the sidewalks. I wish I were part of this longer....

On another note, I am leaving tomorrow for two weeks. I will be going first to Budapest, then Krakow, Prague after that, and, lastly,Tallinn. I am soo excited!!! This is the first time I will be going to Eastern Europe. All these cities are located in some of the new annexed states of the EU. I will have my cell phone on me, but unfortunately, I don't think I will answer just because the phone rates are very expensive. I think, there is a better chance of anyone catching me via e-mail. I wish everyone the best, and I will see/talk to you in about two weeks. (I come back March 5th.) I am sooooo excited!!!!!!!!!!!!


I wanna fly away...

Keggel....

Last night I went out with my mentor and the some other people from my group. We went to a bar where they have Keggel. Keggel happens to be the German version of bowling except smaller and it only has 9 pins instead of 10. Ah, it was sooo much fun. Especially because people were making the balls bounce (which is not very good) from one lane to another. Thomas Staub, my mentor, invited us a couple of drinks (free German [dark] beer!!!) and some dessert. OMG, dessert was amazing. I had a freshly made crepe with chocolate and vanilla icecream, chocolate syrup, powdered sugar, and whipped cream!!! hahaha the calories keep on racking up. Of course, we also had to play men vs. women. There 4 guys and 3 of us. The men, not surprisingly, were saying, "Be ready to die. We'll kick your ass!!!" But as soon as they opened their mouths to say those words, we kicked their ASSES!!! We beat them and I am going to brag about it till the end of this month!!!!
After we came back, we went to Engelberger E (i live at Engelberger F) to celebrate my friend Andrew's 21st birthday. More cake, more icecream, more alcohol to drink!!! And did i get any work done, or did i study for my German test today? NOOOOOOO hahaha, i am so screwed. Ah, whatever!!!
Well, just 2 more days before i go, woot!!!

Damn Birds!!!

I have come to the conclusion that my sister Jessica is completely right to hate all avian species. Why am i soo for this now after so many years of opposing??? Well, the news is that yesterday, Germany confirmed its first cases of the H5N1 strain of BIRD FLU!!!!!! Omg, it's starting to get everywhere now. First, it was the mad cow disease, and now the chickens are getting it. I must say that i am not planning on going to the other side and becoming a vegetarian, or worst a vegan (*disclosure: i do not hate vegetarians/vegans.... some of them are my friends). It is hard to comes to terms with the realization that this epidemic is not so much third world any more. I also think there has been certain factors that have really hightened this to a whole new level. For example, an e-mail sent from my IES program to all the students of the my group. It reads:

Dear Students,

There have been cases of avian flu with swans at the German coast of the Baltic Sea.
We would like to ask you that you avoid direct contact any kind of poultry on your travels (live animal markets and poultry farms, as well as free-ranging or caged poultry).
The symptoms of the avian flu are respiratory infection, fever, body aches, possible nausea, vomiting and diarrhea, shivering and weakness. Vaccines against the avian flu are not yet available, as the new form of virus first needs to develop.
Thanks and take care

Take care??? Yeah i am sure that will totally prevent me from getting ill. I love how much they worry about us here. hahaha Also, CNN International does not help one bit of all. Every five seconds they play the headline: "Europe in Crisis." Once again, not helping. Well, maybe if i catch the bird flu i will grow some wings and then save alot of money by not having to buy airplane/train tickets, and by also switching to GEICO.

hahaha


Rubber Ducky
Whoo, whoo, whoo
Patito Lindo
Whoo, whoo, whoo
Sang by my lovely sister Christianne

Smashing Valendoom's Day!!!

Well, as it has been a tradition in the last 22 years of my life, I will once again spend Valentine's Day alone. But it's ok, I have grown accustomed to it, and why should i celebrate a holiday that was created by the Hallmark industry only to suck out more blood out of the souls of the consumers. (I say this, and yet, i still wish i had a Valentine....what can you say, at times i am consumer whore, i guess [und ich weiß, dass ich einen Valentine habe].) But that has nothing to do with it. Oh well....

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE

But the real news of today, is way better than any other thing in the world (ok, maybe not everything). I have recently discovered that the Smashing Pumpkins are currently working on the process of a REUNION!!!!! Yes, omg, i am lovin' this. (Germany has been great but without my Smashing Pumpkins Music i am suffering and slowly disintegrating away.) Oh God, you gotta love Billy Corgan's voice and the drums and the bass, and the... omg, this is too orgasmic to handle right now. *breather* lol I will await patiently for this gift from the gods of music. However, i am desperate to finally hear the Smashing Pumpkins play again after their 6year break up. Omg, and if there is a tour??? I DEFINATELY have to go. NO MATTER WHAT!?!?!?!?! Sign me up...


You can see the news here:

http://www.nme.com/news/smashing-pumpkins/20311


Today is the greatest
Day I ’ve ever known
Can’t live for tomorrow
Tomorrow’s much too long
I burn my eyes out
Before I get out
I wanted more
Than life could ever grant
Bored by the chore
Of saving face
Today is the greatest
Day I have ever known
Can’t wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I’ll tear my heart out
Before I get out
Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
I’ve tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings
Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day
That I have ever known
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you round
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you
Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever known
-Smashing Pumpkins, "Today"

Karnivale on 2/12/06

Yesterday, i was at Bad Saekingen at Karnivale. Karnivale is an annual tradition held in the middle of winter. In the old days people thought that winter was brought on by some ghosts, and so in response to these threatening ghosts, the people of the village decided to dress up as scary or as outrageous as possible in order to scare the ghosts of winter away. So, now to keep the tradition alive people hold parades around this time of year to remember. It was so much fun!!! It's like Halloween in the February. Also, if you are not wearing a charm around your neck, the witches and all the gobblings will attack. Of course, i didn't buy a charm so i was thrown confetti, hit about 3 times, my scarf was taken away, and this huge monster threw me on his back and I was like that for a couple of minutes. Hahaha!!! it was so much fun, and if i return to that again, i still won't buy a charm. Its much more fun being harrassed by these creatures!!!



You left too early
Didn't even say goodbye
You wrote rudely
"Don't call"
Didn't even say
"ich liebe dich"
the last 2 times
I am going overboard with this
just ignore it
I wish you best
Don't know when we will
talk again

Waving the flag...

Boo!!!!

Isn't she the cutest little tiger???

Yes, ladies and gentlemen, that is wine!!! He is preparing Gluewein.

It's hot wine with spices. It's great in the cold because it warms you up and of course after having seven of them in about 2 hours will also make you warm.

Marching around the streets. There were over 6,000 people in the parade!!!

Geneva

So I was at Geneva Switzerland the last couple of days. Beutiful city but I wish i would have been able to see more of it. i was mostly all the time in UN meetings!!!! Yeah!!!!! I am dead tired, but hope you enjoy the pics.

At the hotel....

Listening to one of the delegates answer my question....

The environment around the UN offices...

And of course, the UN flags

Change of Mind

Yeah, so my flatmates suck! Ok NOT all of them, just one in particular. You see there is this one flatmate of mine which I thought we were getting along great. He has been the one that I have had the most interaction with. We are always lauging and joking, and he's even asked me a couple of times if I want to go the Mounde Bar with him and some friends. So apparently, he hates me. Yeah, a friend of mine that lives on the second with one his best friends over heard him talking about me. He said that he didn't like because I am always asking for favors, asking for beers and cigarettes, and that I am too loud and crazy. Oh, and he also said that since my arrival he has been missing some beers. What?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

First of all, I might be a bit loud, but I am not a outrageously crazy girl that comes home at 5 in the a.m. and makes crazy noise...

2. I have never asked for a cigi. I don't even smoke!!!

3. Yes, I asked him for a beer once or twice, but I was joking. Apparently, this guy doesn't have any humor...

4. I don't even like beer. Why the hell would I take his? I love my hard liquor too much to reduce myself unto the life of a beer robber....

5. I have only been here a month and this guy feels that he can judge me already. And you know, it's not like he is at the flat the entire day so he can form this analytical and hypothetical assumption about me.

I just worry too much abou what people think. I just wish he would like me. It gets on my nerves that people can be such two-face. And the Germans say that us Amricans are so superficial... I guess we are not the only ones. ( Disclosure: I am not making any judgments about other Germans, I am just venting about this one in particular.) Oh well, he will be moving out this weekend, what do I care? I will have a new flatmate soon and I hope that he likes me better than this one...
*sigh*

Unproductive ist mein Name

This weekend went by so fast and I didn't do anything. I am afraid next weekend will be the same but it's ok because I will be coming back from Geneva. I really wish I could go up North around the outskirts of Hanover, but lack of resources has made me postpone this action until April or May. *sigh* Many of the students from the program went to Munich this weekend. My flatmates asked me why I didn't go.... I wasn't asked to join...
Oh well, I hope they had fun and hopefully I will get to go soon. I just wish I was here by myself without any other students. Like last time. But hey, at least I am here, and that is what really counts. I can't be complaining all the time about this and that. The good thing is that I am getting along very well with my flatmates. I love talking to them, and even though at times I feel embarrassed I try to speak really sloooow German to them. hahahaha.

Sex on the Beach is My New Favorite

Yeah, you heard right, but I am talking about the drink you little pervs. hahaha Well, i found this great discovery out last night due to my good friend Erica who introduced me to this new little friend of mine. So last night we went out to this bar called Glamour to celebrate a friends birthday. However, Glamour has every Wednesday night free drinks for girls from 9-11. and the cool thing is that they dont let boys in till 11. but you can imagine how it gets. it's like hunting for fish in a barrel. but after one mojito, two white russians, one marguerita, two sex on the beach, on three beers i was having quite some fun. and oh my goodness, my all time dream came true. i had a dance off with a complete stranger. this guy came up to me and said "you think you dance good." and so i said, "Bring it!" i SWEAR we had a freaking dance off. there was a huge circle around us and they were yelling out "ohhhh" "ouch" "damn". but guess who one....
MOI!!!! oh my gosh it was so much fun but the best part other than the dance off is the allllll the free drinks!!! till then... keep on dancing

A Few Pictures of Freiburg

Since it's Germany of course you need the official and national mode of transportation. THE BICYCLE!!! I was once told that they are the Silent Killers. And I totally agree.

And of course what would Germany be without the Turkish Döner and Falafel restaurants all over the place. Aha, and you thought Falafels were Greek. Not!!! Those Greeks got you good!!!

This is the church I pass to go to school, and I also attend services at times there.

The Blue Bridge: I cross this bridge each day to go to school. Only bicycles and pedestrians are allowed to use the bridge. I swear one day I am going to get ran over by one of them.

Wheeeee!!!!

I know I worried a few in my last couple of blog entries, but not to worry I am doing better. I think I was just a little sad because I hadn't spoken to anybody of my friends or family in a couple of days. But I am all better now. Today, I finally start all my classes. I have only been taking 2 intensive seminar classes. However, I find it to be very funny because I only have one class on Mondays....and guess what it is. Yup, you're it's my long time enemy and friend, GERMAN!!! I hate it; if it weren't for that stupid class I would have Mondays completely free and then have a four day weekend instead of three, so hence, I would have been able to take full advantage of it to go out on "Holiday" as they around these parts. But NOOOO, the German gods hate me. lol
Well, other than that I had a really good weekend. Friday night, a friend of mine, Claudia, and I made some pasta and then went to a small gathering of friends ("Otherwise, known as an orgy" [10 things i hate about you.....hehehehe]) which then turned into a million people in one apartment. Let's just sayGerman rum and vodka suck. hehehe We were too many so we decided to go to the bar behind our apartment complex.
Let me tell you the story behind my dorms. When I first saw my room I though it was just like a hospital room. It has a huge wide door (like to fit a hospital bed through it), white washed tall walls, cold floors, and bad heating. Two days later one of the program's coordinator told me that in fact, the whole dorm facility use to be a French hospital. ewww. Anyways, the bar is called Münden Bar which is Vietnamese for "morgue". Yeah, the bar use to be a morgue. It's an underground morgue. Yeah, you heard right, Sketchy McSketch, right? After a couple more shots and beers I swear I could see ghosts walking around the bar. hehehe
Saturday, I stayed in. You might ask yourself why I decided to stay in seeing that I am in Europe and how I should be taking advantage of everything here. But the thing is that pretty soon we are going to start some major-touring-working-awesome tours around eastern and western Europe and I don't want to be all pooped out. So I just chillaxed and rested. Ooooh, I found out that my new laptop also plays DVDs from different regions so I was watching Erin Brockovich in German. Ok, no, I put it in English, but I left the German subtitles on. Oh, I miss watching my movies, but what I miss watching is my Dane Cook Comedy Central Special ("You're move Holy Man!!!") Oh my gosh, I am so random; but that's because I did a line of Ovaltine before I got here...hehehe. Diana, you are probably the only one laughing at that, hahaha.
Oh, I finally got my mailing address, so I am going to post up here so you peepz can send me lots of gifts and letters. I miss you all sooooooooo much. Miss ya, luv ya!!!

Here ya go:

Gabriela Jones
c/o IES-Freiburg EU Center
Erbprinzenstraße 18
79098 Freiburg im Breisgau
GERMANY

*Sigh II*

It's a new day
Anything can go either way
Last night was full of cries
Woke up with sun in my eyes
Today I am taking 2 tests
So much needed rest
But I am okay
It's a brand new day
It's wonderful to have friends
They ease all your ends
Thanks to you
I am no longer blue....


Thanks, Di !!!
Luv ya

*Sigh*

I can't help but wonder what the true meaning of my life is. I know it's not the time for me to get all philosiphical. I am so upset with myself. I am in Germany; I am finally back to the place where I wanted to be, and yet, I still feel somewhat disappointed. Loneliness seems to follow me where ever I go. Why does it seem that I worsen as time progresses? I have to admit... All of this is bullshit!!! My whole life is bullshit!!! But how can I call my family, friends, all those who love bullshit??? They are not. It's me. Maybe it's not the life that sucks, but it is the person living it...

I haven't made any really good friends here. Yeah, I have met a couple of people here and there, but I cannot warm up to them. I don't want to sound condescending, but everyone else is here is in this program for the wrong reasons. Everyone wants to drink, party, and not learn the language. But whom am I to judge? I just feel I cannot bond with any people based on their expectations for these next months. Maybe I should lower my standards and just become the "normal American student who likes to party and be ignorant of other cultures." I can only think of two instances where I have been truly happy here, but I know they won't happen again for a very long time due to a distancing that will be implemeted on February 13th....

I should get rid of all defenses and take everything in. BUT I AM TAKING EVERYTHING IN!!! I am f***ing messed up in the head. Ugh! Whatever disease I have, I hope it leaves me soon. But I can't promise anything like that because I have been feeling like this for a long time...

Deutschland 2006!!!

So Peepz,
i know it has been a looooong time since i have written in this thing. It's just so hard to keep up with this internet thing cuz right now I DON'T HAVE INTERNET!!! it freaking sucks, but let me give you the quick lowdown on how the situation is going....


1. i was at home for the winter holidays
2. i saw a bunch of relatives and friends
3. had a great time
4. left to germany on jan. 10 and arrived the 11th
5. have been in germany over a week
6. went to the black forrest
7. climbed the highest mountain in the black forrest
8. have had an amazing amount of beer and wine
(i must take in the culture...hehehe)
9. miss everyone deeply
10. will be going to strasbourg tomorrow

the list keeps going on and on
i will soon post pics online of all my adventures here in Deutschland
send me an e-mail once in a while
p.s. i don't have internet in my room (which sucks), so i won't be on AIM that much

luv ya everybody!!!

Hooray for being back at home!!!

However, I miss everybody

Almost in Germany....

DECEMBER 14TH!!!!!!!

IT'S MY 22ND BIRTHDAY!!!!!
WOOT!!!!!

Oh Come Wednesday...

Guess who is having a Birthday soon????

Yours Truly...

In the wise words of Mr. Mitch Nelson, "Twenty-Two is the age where you must out do all your previous alcohol experiences."
So guess what Mitch and I will be doing this coming Wednesday. hahahaha.

Well, I will be back home on Sunday. Which I am uber excited about cuz that means after that I will be in Deutschland!!! Woot! However, like I have said over and over again I will miss everyone deeply.

Ah, so close

It has been a million years since i have posted anything new, but that's because i have been mad busy with school. I have been studying for finals, but yesterday i finished with my finals. I took all of them yesterday!!!! However, i do have one more art project due on Monday, but that will be a breeze and so much fun! I will go back to home sweet home on the 18th so if you are in the ROC area till then make suere to stop by and say good-bye cuz i won't see you next semeste. I'll be gone. I am going too Deutschland. Woot! I am so excited....

Closer...

Yay, I got another "A" in my Art Class...

i was a bit skeptical at first about this class, but it has turned out to be my favorite class this semester. However, I have one final project due and I feel as if i am hitting a brick wall. We can create/do anything, but i don't know what exactly i want to do. So much to choose from. I right now i seem to be lacking my "muse".... hehehe

I wish i were having this much fun in German class. I love the professor, but the rest is killing me. Ahh!!! Just a couple more days in that class and all will be over with. To be exact I will be finished with my German class the Thursday of the next week. Yay!!!!


Also, I am starting to count down to next semester. I will be in Germany. However, at times I think that I shouldn't go. I love my housemates, the new friends that I have made, and those certain someones that I have shared my last couple of weeks with (shout out to my boys:
My Drunk Asshole, My Hubby, and My President.....X2, x-treme!!! I love you guys.) There is still so much for me here, but i know that there is this huge world awaiting me in a couple of weeks...
The decision will have to be made....

Newly Weds

Yes...
you heard right...

I am a newly wed...well, not exactly.....
I just celebrated my one year anniversary with none other than my ever-faithful blogger. Yay!!!

And what did we do to celebrate....

I went to NYC for the break!!! Ah, it was incredible. It was so much fun that I don't want to go back to school.

Oh well....

Last Night....

Thank you everyone....

last night was lovely,
it was more than what i could have asked for
there is still so much turkey
you should go to the kitchen and grab some more
people laughing
wine being consumed
everyone smiling
the chocoflan amused
from the bohemian feast
to the heart warming flames in the fire place
it was a banquet from heaven none the least
even i had a smile upon my face that could not be erased

Dear Mister......

Ok, so hear is the deal my blog is for people to read it. I am flattered when they leave a comment, but it is not a requisite in order to read my online journal. I don't care if they leave a comment or not. I must confess I do like it when people leave me messages, however, I am not too fond of messages that read, "Nobody has left a comment in a while. Sad, isn't it?" I must say, "What the F***?" No, it's not sad. People just don't want to. I am sorry if I am not Suzy High School or Ms. Popular. Ugh! Really, that is the rudest comment in my blog so far. And if you don't plan to write anything nice, well then I rather have a bare wall with nothing annoying on it. Thank you. Have a nice day!

X-Men 2

I must confess that I have an addiction.....

A big one....


Hahaha. Ladies and Gentlemen I am a dork. Yes, you have heard (or read?) quite right. I LOVE to play
X-Men Legends 2!!!! It is amazing how many hours I have played that game alongside my boys. Yup, I am doing a fine job in procrastinating all my work. Yeah, so much for being a good student this semester. Oh well, I enjoy playing X2.... I think I just enjoy more the fact that I am having such a good time with the boys and how we all get along. Ok, back to the game. I must go Phoenix Force out of here....

Threre's Always a Silver Lining....

Even with all the bad times....
Even with all the worries...
Even with all the stress....
Even when I felt the worst....


Something beautiful blossomed from the ashes....

Thank You...


=)

Autumn

My School's Library


I love the Fall and how everything looks. I love the red, yellow, orange, and brown. I feel at peace walking along the sidewalk and feeling the leaves crunching right below my feet. I love the crisp air that walks along my side. With every step it fortifies me and I feel renewed...

Photoshop

moi



I love playing with Adobe Photoshop....

I totally messed up....

I hate myself....

*sigh*

I am such a fucking douchebag


*sigh*

Zoiks......

Wow ....

definately need to get some sleep ....

running on three hours of it

i did three essays last night

1 in german
the f***ing subjunctive

2 for a scholarship ....
hopefully i'll get it

need to lay down before i collapse
before i die

the eczema is still making itself at home upon my body
i feel so ugly now

so stressed out about bullshit ....
that won't matter in 5 years

these are the times of my life .....
i hope they (fucking) improve,
then it would have been a complete waste

Damn it

So.....


I went to the hospital today


I have eczema


Great!!!


So much for not being stressed out


this sucks.


Does anybody want to take care of me?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE A BIRTHDAY IN OCTOBER!!!!

p.s. Sorry i have not been the best of friends and haven't called or given you a gift. I know I am a bad person and for that I shall suffer the consequences. But please do know that I love y'all with all my heart and hope the best for the years to come.
=)

Bloody Hell.....

Yeah, that's right....
i wish i were british so i could pull off the saying, "Bloody Hell"

Since yesterday i have been in enormous amounts of pain.
My eyelids have over-dried, become swollen, and cracked.
In consequence of the cracking, my eyes bled.
Ok, maybe not my eyes (i am not the virgin Mary or something),
but my eyelids bled.
It has stopped now,
but it still hurts.
I think what makes it worse
is not having anyone next to me in my bed
To take care of me
until the pain goes away.


Ah, so much pain.

=(