Wheeeee!!!!

I know I worried a few in my last couple of blog entries, but not to worry I am doing better. I think I was just a little sad because I hadn't spoken to anybody of my friends or family in a couple of days. But I am all better now. Today, I finally start all my classes. I have only been taking 2 intensive seminar classes. However, I find it to be very funny because I only have one class on Mondays....and guess what it is. Yup, you're it's my long time enemy and friend, GERMAN!!! I hate it; if it weren't for that stupid class I would have Mondays completely free and then have a four day weekend instead of three, so hence, I would have been able to take full advantage of it to go out on "Holiday" as they around these parts. But NOOOO, the German gods hate me. lol
Well, other than that I had a really good weekend. Friday night, a friend of mine, Claudia, and I made some pasta and then went to a small gathering of friends ("Otherwise, known as an orgy" [10 things i hate about you.....hehehehe]) which then turned into a million people in one apartment. Let's just sayGerman rum and vodka suck. hehehe We were too many so we decided to go to the bar behind our apartment complex.
Let me tell you the story behind my dorms. When I first saw my room I though it was just like a hospital room. It has a huge wide door (like to fit a hospital bed through it), white washed tall walls, cold floors, and bad heating. Two days later one of the program's coordinator told me that in fact, the whole dorm facility use to be a French hospital. ewww. Anyways, the bar is called Münden Bar which is Vietnamese for "morgue". Yeah, the bar use to be a morgue. It's an underground morgue. Yeah, you heard right, Sketchy McSketch, right? After a couple more shots and beers I swear I could see ghosts walking around the bar. hehehe
Saturday, I stayed in. You might ask yourself why I decided to stay in seeing that I am in Europe and how I should be taking advantage of everything here. But the thing is that pretty soon we are going to start some major-touring-working-awesome tours around eastern and western Europe and I don't want to be all pooped out. So I just chillaxed and rested. Ooooh, I found out that my new laptop also plays DVDs from different regions so I was watching Erin Brockovich in German. Ok, no, I put it in English, but I left the German subtitles on. Oh, I miss watching my movies, but what I miss watching is my Dane Cook Comedy Central Special ("You're move Holy Man!!!") Oh my gosh, I am so random; but that's because I did a line of Ovaltine before I got here...hehehe. Diana, you are probably the only one laughing at that, hahaha.
Oh, I finally got my mailing address, so I am going to post up here so you peepz can send me lots of gifts and letters. I miss you all sooooooooo much. Miss ya, luv ya!!!

Here ya go:

Gabriela Jones
c/o IES-Freiburg EU Center
Erbprinzenstraße 18
79098 Freiburg im Breisgau
GERMANY

*Sigh II*

It's a new day
Anything can go either way
Last night was full of cries
Woke up with sun in my eyes
Today I am taking 2 tests
So much needed rest
But I am okay
It's a brand new day
It's wonderful to have friends
They ease all your ends
Thanks to you
I am no longer blue....


Thanks, Di !!!
Luv ya

*Sigh*

I can't help but wonder what the true meaning of my life is. I know it's not the time for me to get all philosiphical. I am so upset with myself. I am in Germany; I am finally back to the place where I wanted to be, and yet, I still feel somewhat disappointed. Loneliness seems to follow me where ever I go. Why does it seem that I worsen as time progresses? I have to admit... All of this is bullshit!!! My whole life is bullshit!!! But how can I call my family, friends, all those who love bullshit??? They are not. It's me. Maybe it's not the life that sucks, but it is the person living it...

I haven't made any really good friends here. Yeah, I have met a couple of people here and there, but I cannot warm up to them. I don't want to sound condescending, but everyone else is here is in this program for the wrong reasons. Everyone wants to drink, party, and not learn the language. But whom am I to judge? I just feel I cannot bond with any people based on their expectations for these next months. Maybe I should lower my standards and just become the "normal American student who likes to party and be ignorant of other cultures." I can only think of two instances where I have been truly happy here, but I know they won't happen again for a very long time due to a distancing that will be implemeted on February 13th....

I should get rid of all defenses and take everything in. BUT I AM TAKING EVERYTHING IN!!! I am f***ing messed up in the head. Ugh! Whatever disease I have, I hope it leaves me soon. But I can't promise anything like that because I have been feeling like this for a long time...

Deutschland 2006!!!

So Peepz,
i know it has been a looooong time since i have written in this thing. It's just so hard to keep up with this internet thing cuz right now I DON'T HAVE INTERNET!!! it freaking sucks, but let me give you the quick lowdown on how the situation is going....


1. i was at home for the winter holidays
2. i saw a bunch of relatives and friends
3. had a great time
4. left to germany on jan. 10 and arrived the 11th
5. have been in germany over a week
6. went to the black forrest
7. climbed the highest mountain in the black forrest
8. have had an amazing amount of beer and wine
(i must take in the culture...hehehe)
9. miss everyone deeply
10. will be going to strasbourg tomorrow

the list keeps going on and on
i will soon post pics online of all my adventures here in Deutschland
send me an e-mail once in a while
p.s. i don't have internet in my room (which sucks), so i won't be on AIM that much

luv ya everybody!!!

Hooray for being back at home!!!

However, I miss everybody

Almost in Germany....

DECEMBER 14TH!!!!!!!

IT'S MY 22ND BIRTHDAY!!!!!
WOOT!!!!!

Oh Come Wednesday...

Guess who is having a Birthday soon????

Yours Truly...

In the wise words of Mr. Mitch Nelson, "Twenty-Two is the age where you must out do all your previous alcohol experiences."
So guess what Mitch and I will be doing this coming Wednesday. hahahaha.

Well, I will be back home on Sunday. Which I am uber excited about cuz that means after that I will be in Deutschland!!! Woot! However, like I have said over and over again I will miss everyone deeply.

Ah, so close

It has been a million years since i have posted anything new, but that's because i have been mad busy with school. I have been studying for finals, but yesterday i finished with my finals. I took all of them yesterday!!!! However, i do have one more art project due on Monday, but that will be a breeze and so much fun! I will go back to home sweet home on the 18th so if you are in the ROC area till then make suere to stop by and say good-bye cuz i won't see you next semeste. I'll be gone. I am going too Deutschland. Woot! I am so excited....

Closer...

Yay, I got another "A" in my Art Class...

i was a bit skeptical at first about this class, but it has turned out to be my favorite class this semester. However, I have one final project due and I feel as if i am hitting a brick wall. We can create/do anything, but i don't know what exactly i want to do. So much to choose from. I right now i seem to be lacking my "muse".... hehehe

I wish i were having this much fun in German class. I love the professor, but the rest is killing me. Ahh!!! Just a couple more days in that class and all will be over with. To be exact I will be finished with my German class the Thursday of the next week. Yay!!!!


Also, I am starting to count down to next semester. I will be in Germany. However, at times I think that I shouldn't go. I love my housemates, the new friends that I have made, and those certain someones that I have shared my last couple of weeks with (shout out to my boys:
My Drunk Asshole, My Hubby, and My President.....X2, x-treme!!! I love you guys.) There is still so much for me here, but i know that there is this huge world awaiting me in a couple of weeks...
The decision will have to be made....

Newly Weds

Yes...
you heard right...

I am a newly wed...well, not exactly.....
I just celebrated my one year anniversary with none other than my ever-faithful blogger. Yay!!!

And what did we do to celebrate....

I went to NYC for the break!!! Ah, it was incredible. It was so much fun that I don't want to go back to school.

Oh well....

Last Night....

Thank you everyone....

last night was lovely,
it was more than what i could have asked for
there is still so much turkey
you should go to the kitchen and grab some more
people laughing
wine being consumed
everyone smiling
the chocoflan amused
from the bohemian feast
to the heart warming flames in the fire place
it was a banquet from heaven none the least
even i had a smile upon my face that could not be erased

Dear Mister......

Ok, so hear is the deal my blog is for people to read it. I am flattered when they leave a comment, but it is not a requisite in order to read my online journal. I don't care if they leave a comment or not. I must confess I do like it when people leave me messages, however, I am not too fond of messages that read, "Nobody has left a comment in a while. Sad, isn't it?" I must say, "What the F***?" No, it's not sad. People just don't want to. I am sorry if I am not Suzy High School or Ms. Popular. Ugh! Really, that is the rudest comment in my blog so far. And if you don't plan to write anything nice, well then I rather have a bare wall with nothing annoying on it. Thank you. Have a nice day!

X-Men 2

I must confess that I have an addiction.....

A big one....


Hahaha. Ladies and Gentlemen I am a dork. Yes, you have heard (or read?) quite right. I LOVE to play
X-Men Legends 2!!!! It is amazing how many hours I have played that game alongside my boys. Yup, I am doing a fine job in procrastinating all my work. Yeah, so much for being a good student this semester. Oh well, I enjoy playing X2.... I think I just enjoy more the fact that I am having such a good time with the boys and how we all get along. Ok, back to the game. I must go Phoenix Force out of here....

Threre's Always a Silver Lining....

Even with all the bad times....
Even with all the worries...
Even with all the stress....
Even when I felt the worst....


Something beautiful blossomed from the ashes....

Thank You...


=)

Autumn

My School's Library


I love the Fall and how everything looks. I love the red, yellow, orange, and brown. I feel at peace walking along the sidewalk and feeling the leaves crunching right below my feet. I love the crisp air that walks along my side. With every step it fortifies me and I feel renewed...

Photoshop

moi



I love playing with Adobe Photoshop....

I totally messed up....

I hate myself....

*sigh*

I am such a fucking douchebag


*sigh*

Zoiks......

Wow ....

definately need to get some sleep ....

running on three hours of it

i did three essays last night

1 in german
the f***ing subjunctive

2 for a scholarship ....
hopefully i'll get it

need to lay down before i collapse
before i die

the eczema is still making itself at home upon my body
i feel so ugly now

so stressed out about bullshit ....
that won't matter in 5 years

these are the times of my life .....
i hope they (fucking) improve,
then it would have been a complete waste

Damn it

So.....


I went to the hospital today


I have eczema


Great!!!


So much for not being stressed out


this sucks.


Does anybody want to take care of me?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE A BIRTHDAY IN OCTOBER!!!!

p.s. Sorry i have not been the best of friends and haven't called or given you a gift. I know I am a bad person and for that I shall suffer the consequences. But please do know that I love y'all with all my heart and hope the best for the years to come.
=)