Thursday, December 09, 2004

And The Band Keeps Playing On

I wish I could be a big band singer and kick ass on stage. I can see myself all dressed up in a big dress, the light on me, and it's just the intimacy of the audience and me. So many songs, so many moods, so many feelings wrapped in every lyric that my mouth unfolds. I conquer all my fears on stage and does that I still have polish me and make me stronger. Don't mind me I am just rambling like usual? But have you ever had one of those times where you feel the need to be on top of the world and the only way to do that is by imagining yourself as your most inner desire? I really don't care if I am a big band singer, as long as I am on stage feeling teh warmth of the lights. I think what is the best about being on stage is that you live a life in which you look out into the darkness of the audience and see nobody. You don't feel judged, you don't feel spied on even though there are hundreds of eyes looking at you. It's not like real life; we don't have those illuminating lights to block out the smirks and the negative thoughts people give us so willingly each day. Let the band keep playing and let that spotlight shine all night, I need it if I want to survive this bubble called U of R. I look foward to the day in which I can carry my own tune without the help or support of 20 musicians.

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