The thing is that I have not been myself ever since I got back from break, and I mean summer break. I feel lifeless and unmotivated. I am like 1,000 piece jig-saw puzzle, but suddenly realize that I am 999 and missing a piece. Where has that piece gone to? OR does that piece have to come to me? When will I get my pEAce? I am ready to leave this place and not look to what I have left behind me. It feels as if I am stuck once again in the 90210 but with worse actors than the previous one. All of the shit and all of the drama has worn me down to the bone where I have become disintegrated. That feeling in the soul is gone and the shine from my eyes has reached its sunset. I wish to move but I remain stuck in this isle of disillusion, of lost hope, of lost faith, of lost souls. My monster follows me as if it were my shadow. I try to run away but it comes back to me ten times stronger than when it left. She is there; watching me, spying me, taking over me. Evil can only be a woman, because she can both be tempting and vengeful. She lurks around in the shadows waiting for my fall. And when I fall it will my long awaited death. Maybe there will I get a rest.