The 11th

In a day like this, after only a couple of years, (although at times it seems quite the opposite), I am reminded...
And all we can do to fight the Memories, the Anger and the Hatred, is not to keep our Love locked down and stay strong.

"Love Lock Down"
Kanye West

My New City...BREMEN!!!

In Just a Flash...

I am moving to BREMEN in less than 24 HOURS!!!!
And starting Grad-School on MONDAY!!!!

INSANE!!!!

more to come....

I am such in a good mood...
Let me show you with (maybe the corniest) video... It's a feel-good music...
(I know you are loving it Christianne!!!)

The United States of America of Europe

Funny, satirical, but could there be some truth to this dry humor or is just a 'flipped' patriotism to keep the US focused on one track?

http://www.comedycentral.com/colbertreport/videos.jhtml?videoId=177509

For My Babe....

I know it is old and cheesey....

....but I love You just the way you are

The Euro 2008 is Ruining my City!!!!!!

So, the European Championship tournament started about 2 weeks ago. There have been open-airscreenings all around the city of Frankfurt. And, since Frankfurt is such an international city, thereis, of course, almost every night a celebration of some sorts for the winning team. But, it is reallytruly now getting out of hand. With Germany's victory last night, the city went insane. The streetswere crowded, trashcans were thrown against window shops, the main streets and pedestrian walkways were/are bombarded with trash, and broken beer, wine, alcohol bottles cover the street. UGH!!!!!! I know there is a great love for soccer/football, but everything is getting out of hand. I know it is cruel to say it, but, it is JUST A GAME. It's not like they are curing cancer or fighting global warming. And by the recaps of last night's game, it also seems like 120 million Euro for one player were flushed down the drain. (Which, by the way, he won't even finish off his contract, instead he is looking to be bought by Real Madrid who purchased Zidane for 90 Million Euro!!! Now, how much are they going to pay for him??? RIDICULOUS)

However, there is one or couple of good things from the Euro 2008. You can check them out below....
and Ladies....
Your Welcome!!!

Vedran Corluka, Croatia #5

Jens Lehmann, Germany #1, Goalkeeper....
(maybe, I like him, because I was also a goalie)

Cristiano Ronaldo, Portugal #7
(The Most Expensive Player in the World,
hmmm, sometimes I like him, sometimes I like
him better with his shirt off)

Volkan Demirel, Turkey #23, Goalkeeper
(I don't know. I am still making up my mind about him,
but a couple of my friends think he is also hot.)

A Much Needed Recap

I realized today that my last couple of posts have not really conveyed what my life in the past couple of weeks/months have been. I blame laziness and also, perhaps the lack of lust to continue with this blog...but I was inspired to write today.
Something happened to me today that made me realized, "maybe bad things happen to good people in order for good people to stay good". Now, I know that sounds illogical, but let me explain what I mean. Unfortunately, I feel a little bit ashamed of what happened today, so I am just skipping over those details. Hmmmm, so how to explain the previous statement. Maybe, an example would be better. Such as, a young inexperienced teenager gets arrested for trying to buy for the very first time marijuana. He gets 2 nights in jail and 6 months of probation. On the other side, the drug dealer is living the great life and hasn't have a care in the world. There is the predisposition the teenager is good and caring citizen that in a moment of weakness gives into life's pressures. As the teenager gets caught, he says to himself, "Why me? Why of all the people in the world, why me?" Now, this can go two ways. First, the young man has lost all hope and faith and continues down the path of self-destruction. The second, the young man got such a scare and reaches an epiphany. Stupid actions that seem great and ecstatic at the present moment are not worth throwing away your life for. Maybe, it is a little bit too extreme, but I like the optimism in it.
What I am trying to say in a few words, I guess, is that I learned my lesson. I am not stating that I am going to turn a new leaf, but it is one step closer to getting me there. Only time will tell the outcome of today's events.

Life at the Moment

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!


This sucks!

Music I am Currently Listening to

'Nighttiming', Coconut Records



'Miles Away', Madonna


'Say Goodbye to Love', Kenna


'Everybody Nose', N.E.R.D.


'American Boy', Estelle feat. Kanye West


'Nine in the Afternoon', Panic at the Disco!

I Know Somebody Loves Me...

I did not sleep well last night, and I have been having (like usual) lots of stress. I was not feeling all that well, but today as I checked my facebook account I saw I had a message from my little sister Christianne that read:

G-jo,
I saw these videos
and they reminded me how much
we loved the songs.

I love you

-Chrisy


I love you, too, Sis.

Here are the videos for your viewing pleasure.

'Fidelity', by Regina Spektor


'Somewhere Out There, (Gravity)', by Our Lady Peace

Expecting Expectations

My mother has always said that one of my biggest qualities and weaknesses is expecting too much from people, expecting people to be good, honest, moral, thoughtful, driven, motivated, generous, and so on and so on. But at times (or recently, it has seem often) my 'high' standards towards people consequentially have led me to disappointment and shock. Moreover, what makes the situation is worse is that I hold on to grudges, thus, the thought of the disappointment will always be with me. No matter how much time passes or no matter how many repairs have been made and apoligies been asked, I still hold on, remember, and constantly remind the victimizer of his/her wrong doing....probably because I want them to know how much pain and sadness their deception had/has/does hurt me. But this is where I am wrong. I keep feeding into this vicious cycle, and by feeding it, I continue to damage my heart, mind, soul, and the ones around me.
On the other side of the spectrum, people have told me to let go of expectations. Their reasoning being, if I don't have any expectations, then I cannot be disappointed, I would be surprised. But I cannot be so apathetic to the situation or to life in general. Why should I lower my standards to comply with the status quo of happiness? Is it so wrong for me to expect more than the normal average? Life is a one-time-gift that I want to enjoy and live to the fullest, hence, I expect those around me to know the same and savor life with me. However, how much credit should I give to people into telepathy? hehehe

A strength or a weakness???
A constant battle with myself, I guess....

Hug-O-Freak

I realized today that I missed being hugged on a daily basis. I know it may sound weird or maybe to some people a little bit disturbing. But to me showing physical affection is very important. Now, hugging does not only have to be an activity shared between you and your significant other (there are other things the two can do), hugging is also an action between two (or sometimes even more people) people who have a deep (non-sexual) love and mutual respect for one another. I miss very much Sandwich Hugs.... Sean, Mitch, and Nick would wrap themselves around me, leaving me in the middle and would hug me till I started yelling, 'Stop!' They said I yelled out of pleasure. Or, when my brother hugs me. He wraps his huge arms around me, cracks my back, and then lifts me up into the air. There is nothing like feeling loved and also getting a massage at the same time. Then, there are the ultimate hugs from my mom and dad. (However, I have never found someone who can hug me so intensely and loving all at one time like my mom.) In my parents' hugs I feel safe, protected, and like a child of 5 once again. No harm would come my way. It is a haven for safe keeping that only I can experience.

But what I really dislike are Hugs that do not mean anything...hugs, that don't have any feelings behind them. A hug is an embrace and in an embrace one should not be able to so easily escape. Hugs that are disintegrated with just one push are not worth giving nor receiving. I also believe that through a hug one can transmit energy to another. So, if you give me a lame weak hug you are filling me with doubt, sadness, and insecurity. But hug me tightly and warmly and you will have my attention and, of course, smiling.

Third Time is a Charm (and Death)!

So, first it was black and white, then blue, and finally, gold. Yes, I am referring to my dress for this little thing (a.k.a. BALL) I have in the beginning of May. This was such an odyssey, and it hurts me that I have none of my girl-friends here to share/live/cry with. Everyone knows how guys are, they could care less, so I don't even begin to tell the boy about it. He would not understand and then presume that I am a superficial American for putting too much emphasis on something that really does not matter.

But the truth of the matter is that it DOES matter. If dress code was not entailed to the word BALL, then there would be no worries about what to or what not to wear. And even though men vote not 'to care', men were the ones who invented these restrictions and compliances for an event's wardrobe in order to differentiate between social classes and elites. However, through time shifts and changes have occurred, and now dress code has become more of a set tradition that helps to install a common denominator amongst the masses.

So, the dress....I think the final color was inspired by a little quarrel I had with Renke. I always state that the German flag's colors are black, red and yellow. But, being a proud german Renke corrects me and states that the color is not yellow, it is GOLD.



Now, that really does not seem like the color gold to me, but as it was PROUDLY shown to me, the colors of the flag are in the German constitution and it states gold, not yellow. I may be incorrect technically, but if you would cover the red and black from the picture above, and ask anyone what color is the remaining color, they would surely answer yellow. I am saying, if you are going as far as to put it in your constitution then actually do IT! Deutschland, do not be all talk and no action.
And in consequence of this brawl, I decided to actually show what a true gold should look like.

You can see pictures later of my dress...

Tina and Hillary

This is soooo right!!! I love it, I love it!!!

On the Ball....

Love the video
Love the song
Love the accent

Tired

It is days like today (and like the ones for the past two months) that really make me question what the HECK am I doing with my life and why here?

Oh goodness....

Billy Corgan and the Pumpkins

*sigh*

Due to some unforseen past and future expenditures, I had to make a sacrifice and not buy a ticket to the Smashing Pumpkins concert in Frankfurt on February 22, 2008. This was probably going to be my first, only and last time seeing them live. But I guess responsibility calls. I just wish that for once, I could throw that crap out the window and live my life vicariously! But noooo, I have to be an adult and responsible.
I think the night of the concert I will just have to buy not one, but two bottles of red wine, listen to the Smashing Pumpkins as loud as I can, pretend that I am in the first row, and that Billy Corgan is singing just for me.
But to honor my Pumpkins here are some videos for your guys' enjoyment.

The Mirror

She is queen of haste
doesn't like admitting this
'cause she always feels in second place

She is easy-going in every day life
though I must forewarn
don't forget birthdays and the likes

A little too dramatic at times
but that's only to make you smile
Yet, it's all fun and games till someone cries

She will probably be the first to drop a tear
too much Prosecco
If you know what I mean

Hates confrontations and competing
That doesn't mean
She will give up so easy

Puts a show for the world to see
But a few can go in
Only if she likes their plee

Music helps her forget it all
She goes to the club
And hopes to dance until she falls

Likes your fingers in her hair
Mickey Mouse Pancakes in bed
Most of all Satin Sheets when she is bare

Speaken when spoken to
quiet most of the time
Don't you know the inner-workings of her mind?