When someone tells you that they can't call you for a while, one would think there would a legitimate reason behind it? One would like to give the other person the benefit of the doubt. One would think that the reasoning behind the lack of communication would be that they have to study for an exam, they have meetings, they have to do a group project, and so on and so forth. But when the person who you haven't had any contact with the last few days calls you from a party and then states that all they did was watch a soccer game and go to a party, of course one will get a bit annoyed. *sigh* I should not be pissed off nor mad. It was only about two days, but they seemed like forever. Ugh, I hate being here in Freiburg with nothing to do other than school. If i were in New York or Texas i would care less because i would be busy, too. I have my University, my job, the theater, all my friends, my dance team, my coffee shops, my whole life. (Unfortunately, the only part of my life missing when I am in New York or Texas is YOU.) But being here with nothing to do gives me way tooo much time on my hands to think and to over think things. i miss having a complete life. i miss the hustle and bustle. Yes, i complain about it, but it is my life, and it is the thing that keeps me going. I hate scaring myself when I think too much. I think and I analyze my future, my past, my present, and the present from others.
I hate not being there….
I hate not being here….
Love is suicide,
Love is suicide
“Bodies,” The Smashing Pumpkins
...wie auch immer!!!
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